every day is a like a challenge for me
and each day
im always feeling tired

tuition and art project crashing down on me

even cca; the concert is drawing near
and is crashing me down with its rehearsal attendances

even Sat and Sun
i don't have a good rest.
Especially Sunday
always forcing myself to get up to attend music lesson.

im hating my cca more and more
not only because of its attendance and long hours
i will never forget those worst moments i had when i was in Hawaii. It was terrible. Horribly ugly. I once even cried quietly inside the hotel toilet. Although i enjoyed the trip, i regretted going there at the same time.

zann and imm inn were right with their reasonings why they dun like to go for band
even i felt the same way as they do

God, is this a challenge you have carved for me?
why is this path so uncertain and stiff for me?
im always feeling nervous, uncertain, feeling unsecure here and there each day
why am i feeling like this?
is it just my imagination?
or are my feelings coming from instinct and are feelings of reality?

am i going to continue been like this?
i dun want to.
i really dun want yet it still comes to me everytime i wake up

sometimes i wish to lock myself in my dreams forever, never to wake up
but i know its silly; running away from reality

every now and then, my heart often panick a little.
Even when im resting or doing nothing, i still feel it
i thought maybe crying will let me get it off my chest
but i can't force it out
why am i always thinking so much?!

I want to think of my future, i even want to picture my ideal future
yet i feel time is too slow. Too fast but too slow. That future, its a very very long way. im turning adult in 4 years time and im still schooling in sec/poly. Not even stepping into university yet. I'll be 21 when im in my 3rd year of Poly while people are already in the first year or second year of Uni.

PLEASE. I DUN WANT TO THINK SO MUCH.
IM SO SCARED IT'LL AFFECT MY STUDIES.
IM WORRIED IT'LL AFFECT MY SOCIAL LIFESTYLE
I KEEP TELLING MYSELF "DON'T THINK SO MUCH"
YET I AM EVERY NOW AND THEN
ITS DISTRACTING MY MIND

I EVEN BROKE A CUP AND A PORCELAIN FISH HANGBELL WITHOUT MY NOTICE.

I HEARD A CRACK BUT I DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER CHECKING IT UNTIL MY PARENTS FOUND A BROKEN FISH HANGBELL ON THE FLOOR. MY MIND IS TOTALLY BLOWN UP.

I ALSO LOST MY NEWLY BOUGHT WATER BOTTLE COST ME 13 BUCKS.
LEFT IT AT SCHOOL.
CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER TO PICK IT UP BEFORE GOING HOME

i dun feel like talking.
i dun feel like joking
ppl joke, i also wanna joke but in the end, dunno to say
i want to play, no mood
even i don't feel the thrill when i played arcade with zhoumeng
i felt emptiness
im feeling lost inside

what a miserable emo i am making myself out to be
worry worry, later grow white hair when haven't turn old yet

maybe i feel like this for now. maybe for this year or even next year

but im sure
once i go to poly
everything will be different
its like stepping into a new life
where you are born once again
new path
new surroundings
new people
new everything.
but of course i won't forget the old ones
and that is, my friends
we might go on seperate ways, but i hope we will still be in contact
and can still cherish our old times

rachel, come on, CHEER UP!
EVERYTHING IS NOT LOST
i know u r feelings this and that
bear with it
just bear with it
im sure u r not the only one
many people also experience it before
just tat each have their own in life
come on come on
CHEER UP!!!

please man..

some pictures to entertain you...

LALALALAL.

didn't go school today

went to hospital checkup

had to drink two bottles of water
to make it very clear for the doctor to do an ultrasound checkup
and can only do so when my bladder is full and really feel like going to the toilet
sian sian

will not elaborate more on this

LALALALA.

i went to Plaza Singapura to meet yew kim, joyce and xue hui to dicuss the t-shirt design for our small band

Also think of a new name for our band

Then Aloysius and Joe Eng came

Had fun chatting with them!

Xue Hui has her OWN LAPTOP!

like SOO PRO LAPTOP!

the top screen, can be adjusted by turning 360 degress! Can also turn 180 degress and push it down so it looks like TV without the keyboard

And it is installed with a PEN for you to point on the screen like those portable PDA!

WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Fujitisu Lifebook"

the logo says

LOL

wah, i was like so impressed

And when she switch on the laptop

it says Windows Vista Business

WAH sia. For business! I asked her why she get such a professional laptop

she say its for the school

i was like WAH? The school wants you all to have your own laptop??

She say yeah!
damn expensive.
2,000 bucks and above

Aloysius also told me that Anglo Chinese school also use laptop like that!

Xue Hui is from Cresent High school
this year 2008, she is sec one

a very good school
she damn smart luhs. Got 252 or 253 for PSLE score
so hella smart man
first, she got her PSP
now got her own laptop

she sure got future luhs
so young already got all these
hahahahaha!


wah sia. Anglo Chinese and Cresent...so impressive.... i wonder if Raffles also got use or not.
even Aloysius can't believe himself when he told me

We talk and talk and we seemed to stay at MAC for sooooo long! like 4 hours!

Then went home with Xue Hui as we both lived in Paya Lebar

yawn yawn. damn sleepy
went home to watch chinese movies
hahahah
then practise flute
then comes dinner
then comes HERE!

HERE i am blogging! xD

weee tml is GOOD FREEDAY!

LOL!

man i love holidays
so full of freedom
i dun like to studies
still must study
its so hard to balance your life

you have to balance your studies as well as balancing your social lifestyle
really tiring

some people chose to study more than improving their own society
some people rather go into society than to study
some people do both!
but i understand, all are still tiring cos each has disadvantages
unless you are very lucky luhs. Born to have a good future nevertheless

SIGH
Later go to work
more tiring, worse than goin to school
Im sure we will complain and wish we still got school cos there are SCHOOL holidays


OH WELL
THAT IS LIFE

FULL STOP

BYEBYE!

WAHAHA. i finally changed into a new blogskin!
and a new addition which is;
CHANYING LINK
DIYANA LINK
JANICE LINK
hahahaha. wat a new look!
im pleased with my work!
LOL xD


today, my cousin and i watched a horror movie
"The Screen at Kamchanot"
a Vietnam movie

kamchanot, briefly spelt like that lah, dunno if its correct or not

its rated PG
but still hella scary
i feel its more than just PG

=.=

it was a story about Kamchanot which was a forest, and it is cursed
this director whoever he is
filmed there for his movie
but then haftway there,
there are "people" watching the film
then suddenly, they vanished into thin air

i think the director tried to burn the film cos it was haunted
but the ghosts killed him, as the movie stated =.=
his assistant who also work with him, suffered mental problem
so he had this amulet that would protect him from seeing "things"

sian, so there was a group of people happened to stumble upon the film lah, then many things happened when they wanna investigate it

each of them got haunted by the ghost.
wat the hell, so scary.

There was this lady, after she saw a ghost, she got frightened and hid inside the car
then suddenly, she saw A BIG FAT CORPSE sitting beside her
scream and scream so hard

Worse, the man, from the same group, was researching his work at the dark gloomy library
then he saw a black figure of a man looking at him. Then he quickly look back at his work, not wanting to see right? Then he felt something chilly behind him

WHEN I WAS WATCHING THAT PART

I SCREAMED

and i was the only one!!!!

i think my cousin giggled at me and even told me that a couple sitting behind us, also laughed at my silly reaction

Because!!!

I screamed because when that guy felt that chilly thing, that motion stayed there for quite a while, so all of us were looking right?

Suddenly, that damned ghost with long hair ZOOM OUT with hands stretching out like wanna strangle that guy!

OMG, can even see the ghostly face!

URGH!!! WHAT A FRIGHT LIAO! MY HEART BANG SO HARD!

okay, i dun wanna elaborate so much luhs. so freaking scary, dun wanna think already. Even got scene of a ghost under the bed.... *if u know wat i mean, when its time to go to bed*

AND THERE ARE TWO PERVERTED SCENES

SCENE ONE:
a couple kissing; the man's hand was groping and rubbing the girl's boobs.

SCENE TWO:
a guy suddenly reached out his hand and GRABBED on the girl's boob SO HARD

yeah, the hand even squeezed it.

that guy right, likes her but then alot of things happened so i think he actually never think properly, so he had sex with her, then kill her

can't believe it right?

disgusting
LOL


its not my choice to choose it. Cos other movies look so boring to me, so i anyhow choose a movie and it has to be a movie that FREAKS me so MUCH


AFTER THAT, I HAD DINNER WITH MY COUSIN AND WENT HOME!


i think im not gonna watch a horror movie ever AGAIN!

when i type this, someone from downstairs suddenly shouted so loud from downstairs
my heart jumped!
SO PAINFULLY ALSO
cos its just my wild imagination

im scared now

dot dot....

every day is a like a challenge for me
and each day
im always feeling tired

tuition and art project crashing down on me

even cca; the concert is drawing near
and is crashing me down with its rehearsal attendances

even Sat and Sun
i don't have a good rest.
Especially Sunday
always forcing myself to get up to attend music lesson.

im hating my cca more and more
not only because of its attendance and long hours
i will never forget those worst moments i had when i was in Hawaii. It was terrible. Horribly ugly. I once even cried quietly inside the hotel toilet. Although i enjoyed the trip, i regretted going there at the same time.

zann and imm inn were right with their reasonings why they dun like to go for band
even i felt the same way as they do

God, is this a challenge you have carved for me?
why is this path so uncertain and stiff for me?
im always feeling nervous, uncertain, feeling unsecure here and there each day
why am i feeling like this?
is it just my imagination?
or are my feelings coming from instinct and are feelings of reality?

am i going to continue been like this?
i dun want to.
i really dun want yet it still comes to me everytime i wake up

sometimes i wish to lock myself in my dreams forever, never to wake up
but i know its silly; running away from reality

every now and then, my heart often panick a little.
Even when im resting or doing nothing, i still feel it
i thought maybe crying will let me get it off my chest
but i can't force it out
why am i always thinking so much?!

I want to think of my future, i even want to picture my ideal future
yet i feel time is too slow. Too fast but too slow. That future, its a very very long way. im turning adult in 4 years time and im still schooling in sec/poly. Not even stepping into university yet. I'll be 21 when im in my 3rd year of Poly while people are already in the first year or second year of Uni.

PLEASE. I DUN WANT TO THINK SO MUCH.
IM SO SCARED IT'LL AFFECT MY STUDIES.
IM WORRIED IT'LL AFFECT MY SOCIAL LIFESTYLE
I KEEP TELLING MYSELF "DON'T THINK SO MUCH"
YET I AM EVERY NOW AND THEN
ITS DISTRACTING MY MIND

I EVEN BROKE A CUP AND A PORCELAIN FISH HANGBELL WITHOUT MY NOTICE.

I HEARD A CRACK BUT I DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER CHECKING IT UNTIL MY PARENTS FOUND A BROKEN FISH HANGBELL ON THE FLOOR. MY MIND IS TOTALLY BLOWN UP.

I ALSO LOST MY NEWLY BOUGHT WATER BOTTLE COST ME 13 BUCKS.
LEFT IT AT SCHOOL.
CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER TO PICK IT UP BEFORE GOING HOME

i dun feel like talking.
i dun feel like joking
ppl joke, i also wanna joke but in the end, dunno to say
i want to play, no mood
even i don't feel the thrill when i played arcade with zhoumeng
i felt emptiness
im feeling lost inside

what a miserable emo i am making myself out to be
worry worry, later grow white hair when haven't turn old yet

maybe i feel like this for now. maybe for this year or even next year

but im sure
once i go to poly
everything will be different
its like stepping into a new life
where you are born once again
new path
new surroundings
new people
new everything.
but of course i won't forget the old ones
and that is, my friends
we might go on seperate ways, but i hope we will still be in contact
and can still cherish our old times

rachel, come on, CHEER UP!
EVERYTHING IS NOT LOST
i know u r feelings this and that
bear with it
just bear with it
im sure u r not the only one
many people also experience it before
just tat each have their own in life
come on come on
CHEER UP!!!

please man..

some pictures to entertain you...

LALALALAL.

didn't go school today

went to hospital checkup

had to drink two bottles of water
to make it very clear for the doctor to do an ultrasound checkup
and can only do so when my bladder is full and really feel like going to the toilet
sian sian

will not elaborate more on this

LALALALA.

i went to Plaza Singapura to meet yew kim, joyce and xue hui to dicuss the t-shirt design for our small band

Also think of a new name for our band

Then Aloysius and Joe Eng came

Had fun chatting with them!

Xue Hui has her OWN LAPTOP!

like SOO PRO LAPTOP!

the top screen, can be adjusted by turning 360 degress! Can also turn 180 degress and push it down so it looks like TV without the keyboard

And it is installed with a PEN for you to point on the screen like those portable PDA!

WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Fujitisu Lifebook"

the logo says

LOL

wah, i was like so impressed

And when she switch on the laptop

it says Windows Vista Business

WAH sia. For business! I asked her why she get such a professional laptop

she say its for the school

i was like WAH? The school wants you all to have your own laptop??

She say yeah!
damn expensive.
2,000 bucks and above

Aloysius also told me that Anglo Chinese school also use laptop like that!

Xue Hui is from Cresent High school
this year 2008, she is sec one

a very good school
she damn smart luhs. Got 252 or 253 for PSLE score
so hella smart man
first, she got her PSP
now got her own laptop

she sure got future luhs
so young already got all these
hahahahaha!


wah sia. Anglo Chinese and Cresent...so impressive.... i wonder if Raffles also got use or not.
even Aloysius can't believe himself when he told me

We talk and talk and we seemed to stay at MAC for sooooo long! like 4 hours!

Then went home with Xue Hui as we both lived in Paya Lebar

yawn yawn. damn sleepy
went home to watch chinese movies
hahahah
then practise flute
then comes dinner
then comes HERE!

HERE i am blogging! xD

weee tml is GOOD FREEDAY!

LOL!

man i love holidays
so full of freedom
i dun like to studies
still must study
its so hard to balance your life

you have to balance your studies as well as balancing your social lifestyle
really tiring

some people chose to study more than improving their own society
some people rather go into society than to study
some people do both!
but i understand, all are still tiring cos each has disadvantages
unless you are very lucky luhs. Born to have a good future nevertheless

SIGH
Later go to work
more tiring, worse than goin to school
Im sure we will complain and wish we still got school cos there are SCHOOL holidays


OH WELL
THAT IS LIFE

FULL STOP

BYEBYE!

WAHAHA. i finally changed into a new blogskin!
and a new addition which is;
CHANYING LINK
DIYANA LINK
JANICE LINK
hahahaha. wat a new look!
im pleased with my work!
LOL xD


today, my cousin and i watched a horror movie
"The Screen at Kamchanot"
a Vietnam movie

kamchanot, briefly spelt like that lah, dunno if its correct or not

its rated PG
but still hella scary
i feel its more than just PG

=.=

it was a story about Kamchanot which was a forest, and it is cursed
this director whoever he is
filmed there for his movie
but then haftway there,
there are "people" watching the film
then suddenly, they vanished into thin air

i think the director tried to burn the film cos it was haunted
but the ghosts killed him, as the movie stated =.=
his assistant who also work with him, suffered mental problem
so he had this amulet that would protect him from seeing "things"

sian, so there was a group of people happened to stumble upon the film lah, then many things happened when they wanna investigate it

each of them got haunted by the ghost.
wat the hell, so scary.

There was this lady, after she saw a ghost, she got frightened and hid inside the car
then suddenly, she saw A BIG FAT CORPSE sitting beside her
scream and scream so hard

Worse, the man, from the same group, was researching his work at the dark gloomy library
then he saw a black figure of a man looking at him. Then he quickly look back at his work, not wanting to see right? Then he felt something chilly behind him

WHEN I WAS WATCHING THAT PART

I SCREAMED

and i was the only one!!!!

i think my cousin giggled at me and even told me that a couple sitting behind us, also laughed at my silly reaction

Because!!!

I screamed because when that guy felt that chilly thing, that motion stayed there for quite a while, so all of us were looking right?

Suddenly, that damned ghost with long hair ZOOM OUT with hands stretching out like wanna strangle that guy!

OMG, can even see the ghostly face!

URGH!!! WHAT A FRIGHT LIAO! MY HEART BANG SO HARD!

okay, i dun wanna elaborate so much luhs. so freaking scary, dun wanna think already. Even got scene of a ghost under the bed.... *if u know wat i mean, when its time to go to bed*

AND THERE ARE TWO PERVERTED SCENES

SCENE ONE:
a couple kissing; the man's hand was groping and rubbing the girl's boobs.

SCENE TWO:
a guy suddenly reached out his hand and GRABBED on the girl's boob SO HARD

yeah, the hand even squeezed it.

that guy right, likes her but then alot of things happened so i think he actually never think properly, so he had sex with her, then kill her

can't believe it right?

disgusting
LOL


its not my choice to choose it. Cos other movies look so boring to me, so i anyhow choose a movie and it has to be a movie that FREAKS me so MUCH


AFTER THAT, I HAD DINNER WITH MY COUSIN AND WENT HOME!


i think im not gonna watch a horror movie ever AGAIN!

when i type this, someone from downstairs suddenly shouted so loud from downstairs
my heart jumped!
SO PAINFULLY ALSO
cos its just my wild imagination

im scared now

dot dot....