every day is a like a challenge for me
and each day
im always feeling tired

tuition and art project crashing down on me

even cca; the concert is drawing near
and is crashing me down with its rehearsal attendances

even Sat and Sun
i don't have a good rest.
Especially Sunday
always forcing myself to get up to attend music lesson.

im hating my cca more and more
not only because of its attendance and long hours
i will never forget those worst moments i had when i was in Hawaii. It was terrible. Horribly ugly. I once even cried quietly inside the hotel toilet. Although i enjoyed the trip, i regretted going there at the same time.

zann and imm inn were right with their reasonings why they dun like to go for band
even i felt the same way as they do

God, is this a challenge you have carved for me?
why is this path so uncertain and stiff for me?
im always feeling nervous, uncertain, feeling unsecure here and there each day
why am i feeling like this?
is it just my imagination?
or are my feelings coming from instinct and are feelings of reality?

am i going to continue been like this?
i dun want to.
i really dun want yet it still comes to me everytime i wake up

sometimes i wish to lock myself in my dreams forever, never to wake up
but i know its silly; running away from reality

every now and then, my heart often panick a little.
Even when im resting or doing nothing, i still feel it
i thought maybe crying will let me get it off my chest
but i can't force it out
why am i always thinking so much?!

I want to think of my future, i even want to picture my ideal future
yet i feel time is too slow. Too fast but too slow. That future, its a very very long way. im turning adult in 4 years time and im still schooling in sec/poly. Not even stepping into university yet. I'll be 21 when im in my 3rd year of Poly while people are already in the first year or second year of Uni.

PLEASE. I DUN WANT TO THINK SO MUCH.
IM SO SCARED IT'LL AFFECT MY STUDIES.
IM WORRIED IT'LL AFFECT MY SOCIAL LIFESTYLE
I KEEP TELLING MYSELF "DON'T THINK SO MUCH"
YET I AM EVERY NOW AND THEN
ITS DISTRACTING MY MIND

I EVEN BROKE A CUP AND A PORCELAIN FISH HANGBELL WITHOUT MY NOTICE.

I HEARD A CRACK BUT I DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER CHECKING IT UNTIL MY PARENTS FOUND A BROKEN FISH HANGBELL ON THE FLOOR. MY MIND IS TOTALLY BLOWN UP.

I ALSO LOST MY NEWLY BOUGHT WATER BOTTLE COST ME 13 BUCKS.
LEFT IT AT SCHOOL.
CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER TO PICK IT UP BEFORE GOING HOME

i dun feel like talking.
i dun feel like joking
ppl joke, i also wanna joke but in the end, dunno to say
i want to play, no mood
even i don't feel the thrill when i played arcade with zhoumeng
i felt emptiness
im feeling lost inside

what a miserable emo i am making myself out to be
worry worry, later grow white hair when haven't turn old yet

maybe i feel like this for now. maybe for this year or even next year

but im sure
once i go to poly
everything will be different
its like stepping into a new life
where you are born once again
new path
new surroundings
new people
new everything.
but of course i won't forget the old ones
and that is, my friends
we might go on seperate ways, but i hope we will still be in contact
and can still cherish our old times

rachel, come on, CHEER UP!
EVERYTHING IS NOT LOST
i know u r feelings this and that
bear with it
just bear with it
im sure u r not the only one
many people also experience it before
just tat each have their own in life
come on come on
CHEER UP!!!

please man..

every day is a like a challenge for me
and each day
im always feeling tired

tuition and art project crashing down on me

even cca; the concert is drawing near
and is crashing me down with its rehearsal attendances

even Sat and Sun
i don't have a good rest.
Especially Sunday
always forcing myself to get up to attend music lesson.

im hating my cca more and more
not only because of its attendance and long hours
i will never forget those worst moments i had when i was in Hawaii. It was terrible. Horribly ugly. I once even cried quietly inside the hotel toilet. Although i enjoyed the trip, i regretted going there at the same time.

zann and imm inn were right with their reasonings why they dun like to go for band
even i felt the same way as they do

God, is this a challenge you have carved for me?
why is this path so uncertain and stiff for me?
im always feeling nervous, uncertain, feeling unsecure here and there each day
why am i feeling like this?
is it just my imagination?
or are my feelings coming from instinct and are feelings of reality?

am i going to continue been like this?
i dun want to.
i really dun want yet it still comes to me everytime i wake up

sometimes i wish to lock myself in my dreams forever, never to wake up
but i know its silly; running away from reality

every now and then, my heart often panick a little.
Even when im resting or doing nothing, i still feel it
i thought maybe crying will let me get it off my chest
but i can't force it out
why am i always thinking so much?!

I want to think of my future, i even want to picture my ideal future
yet i feel time is too slow. Too fast but too slow. That future, its a very very long way. im turning adult in 4 years time and im still schooling in sec/poly. Not even stepping into university yet. I'll be 21 when im in my 3rd year of Poly while people are already in the first year or second year of Uni.

PLEASE. I DUN WANT TO THINK SO MUCH.
IM SO SCARED IT'LL AFFECT MY STUDIES.
IM WORRIED IT'LL AFFECT MY SOCIAL LIFESTYLE
I KEEP TELLING MYSELF "DON'T THINK SO MUCH"
YET I AM EVERY NOW AND THEN
ITS DISTRACTING MY MIND

I EVEN BROKE A CUP AND A PORCELAIN FISH HANGBELL WITHOUT MY NOTICE.

I HEARD A CRACK BUT I DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER CHECKING IT UNTIL MY PARENTS FOUND A BROKEN FISH HANGBELL ON THE FLOOR. MY MIND IS TOTALLY BLOWN UP.

I ALSO LOST MY NEWLY BOUGHT WATER BOTTLE COST ME 13 BUCKS.
LEFT IT AT SCHOOL.
CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER TO PICK IT UP BEFORE GOING HOME

i dun feel like talking.
i dun feel like joking
ppl joke, i also wanna joke but in the end, dunno to say
i want to play, no mood
even i don't feel the thrill when i played arcade with zhoumeng
i felt emptiness
im feeling lost inside

what a miserable emo i am making myself out to be
worry worry, later grow white hair when haven't turn old yet

maybe i feel like this for now. maybe for this year or even next year

but im sure
once i go to poly
everything will be different
its like stepping into a new life
where you are born once again
new path
new surroundings
new people
new everything.
but of course i won't forget the old ones
and that is, my friends
we might go on seperate ways, but i hope we will still be in contact
and can still cherish our old times

rachel, come on, CHEER UP!
EVERYTHING IS NOT LOST
i know u r feelings this and that
bear with it
just bear with it
im sure u r not the only one
many people also experience it before
just tat each have their own in life
come on come on
CHEER UP!!!

please man..