A strange dream
Sunday, February 07, 2010 1:13 AM
When I woke up, first thing I did was remembering the dream I had. A very strange and creepy one.
I have slightly forgotten the beginning.
But nevermind, I will just pour out what I can remember.
I was somewhere in a shopping mall with all my friends and others. Yes, you can name them; jiayi, chanying ivy, steven, joyce... almost all I saw
I was hanging around with them.
I remembered saying hello to Jiayi when she came to meet us. Then she showed an angry face and said something unhappily?
Then the others tried to comfort her and said things to make her think that it may not be what it may turned out to be?
That time I was somehow feeling annoyed and a little unfair? I don't know what happened =.=
After that, like fast forwarding a show in TV, I was given a mission to go to that weird tall building with an overhead bridge for vehicles attached to it and the other end attached to another. Under the bridge was the sea. Very common in USA and other countries which you saw on TV.
I was running as I reached the building. Suddenly as I entered it, I was in a strange yet familar town. A town for..... Indians? As I looked around, the houses looked very traditional, indian craftsmanship everywhere. And very religious looking. Similar to those indian temples you saw. Those statues decoration as a roof for temples. Even the wall colours. All the same as real life images.
Everywhere was nostalgic. I felt a sense of curiosity and at the same time, a wary/unsecure feeling of been in a foreign place.
I was roaming on every street. The town was also similar to the traditional chinese stalls. Small, crampy but with many people shopping for goods etc.
Sorry if Im confusing you with indians and chinese. I was indeed in an indian town but what I described, was just to relate on similar cases so that you can get the clearer picture, hopefully xD
Suddenly I went into a chinese stall. Yeah, not an indian one. Dunno why =.=
Then, I saw a chinese old woman.
She gave me two big fishes in a basin. She looked like she was selling to me. The size of the fishes were around a water bottle's size.
She looked rather unhappy, like can't bear to part with the fish?
Somehow I felt sympathetic for her. When she left, I actually put the two fishes back into a fish tank.
When I glanced at the fish tank, the water was very foggy. I couldn't see anything inside.
Despite that, I could see the two fishes visibly. Their looks were completely different from before.
From normal fishes which we eat, they turned into mini horrifying sharks
Suddenly, there was a squid-like creature below the sharks.
A LIVE tragic event occurred.
The sharks tackled at the squid.
When I watched, I was disgusted, feeling fearful and sympathetic
I wanted to save it but my body was immobolised.
My eyes could only stare at the scene.
The squid was struggling to survive. The sharks kept attacking it. From naughty bites and snappings, to fierce clobberings.
I don't know why this particular squid has got a big mouth. It actually snapped back at the shark that tried to bite it.
While fighting, one shark bit off the squid's one of its many "arms". I saw blood oozing out and dissolving into the water.
The squid was losing its fighting mode. It looked so helpless. I wanted to help but can't move at all??? =.=
The other shark took the chance and bit on the head.
Horrible.
The other shark bit another body part of the squid. As the squid struggled vigoriously, the sharks fought back hard by not letting go and wanting to nibble on the squid.
I felt regretful for sending the stupid sharks back to the tank =.="
Okay, I didn't get to witness its death as while I was watching the intense scene, I was suddenly turned away from it. Everything went blank and I woke up the next day.
LOL.
Why do we dream?
I once read a theory where you dreamt of a place, anywhere, and you were completely naked. People were around you but they acted like nothing happened and just looked at you or talked to you harmlessly.
That indicates your crave for attention. You want people to notice you but nobody seemed to care. Even if you are naked, nobody bothered.
Whoa it sounded reasonable. I got dreamt of it once when I was in secondary school.
Gonna read more on theories of dream :D Interesting...
my ears may burst
Saturday, January 30, 2010 3:58 AM
super short post
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 12:12 AM
NEW BLOG LAYOUT
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 12:46 AM
As you can see, I have modified my blog again and here's a new layout, featuring DBSK!
I am not particularly pleased with the graphics I painted on DBSK. I guessed I have not been practising my photoshop skills for quite a long time =.=
1 more day to JAE and JPSAE/DSA results!
Dear God, please hear my prayer! I know you are always with me wherever I go!
Its pretty late now so I'll update this story of mine which happened to me during the JAE application days AND JPSAE as well.
Its a long story but when you read it, you'll go "Wah what a messy situation you have!"
Really, a tiring messy situation I have ever had....
I even had only 4 hours of sleep for the past few days because of it....
But hard work pays off. I also thanked God so much for letting me discover the important thing before everything is too late... I finally got what I wanted .... 90% though. Stay tuned for it tomorrow alright!
:Da short post
Monday, January 18, 2010 11:23 PM
I started working!
For the first time!
At Seoul Garden
Okay first impression?
Tough
But after about 2 hours of training, I didn't find it that tough now. LOL. I think cos there were less customers and we had senior staffs to guide us.
The supervisor advised us that teamwork is the best. Help each other so there is less work burden. If handle yourself, very tough.
Overall, can handle it.
The most difficult part was to clear the table by carrying alot of plates and bowls on the support of ONE hand only! And the other hand to carry the bbq stove and the big jar for the soup! And you had to move fast. Sian my right arm nearly "collaspe" from carrying so many plates and the bowls on top of them.
Its really DAMN heavy.
Since its January onwards, not many customers were there so it was fine. Most of the time i think? I was told that around June, there will be alot of customers, die die
However, its a good thing for me, cos i won't be working after completing a 4 months contract from January to May. Or April if its too much for me to handle both poly assignments and work.
I finished work at 5pm and had dinner
Was I tired? Hell yes.
I was given 3 days to work before confirming if I wanna continue or quit.
I had to decide again.
I have yet to prepare an art profolio asap! JPSAE and DAE posting results are the same as JAE results if im not wrong. I will need my art profolio as a standby if I was selected.
And I have my flute diploma going on. I can't afford to neglect it.
I wonder if working on Mon - Thurs is still not enough to spare me free time for these two important assignments??
Worse still, my flute diploma exam is around May or June and I have to work hard not to fail ATCL. Not enough practices before May can result to bad performance due to working and the time schedules arranged by SG
Example, I may be too tired from work, I don't have the energy to stand for the next 3 hours practising on the flute.
I told myself; Right now, poly is more important than working. Working can start off anytime.
SO... should I still continue working at Seoul Garden or do surveys instead?
Doing surveys - a company will give you a project (depending on what kind. It can be Strait Times etc) and all you have to do is complete 20 - 22 survey papers given by them. You will be given some period to finish them off asap. It can be about 2 weeks.
You have to go to a location stated in the project and talk to anyone door by door to do the surveys.
Each survey takes 10 mins - 15mins talking with the person. And its $7 per paper!
And the advantage is you can take a break anytime. You can do anything you want so as long as you can finish up a series of surveys within like, 2 weeks?
I never try it before but i went with my cousin to observe her aunty working the surveys.
It was not as hard as working in Seoul garden but you need to talk a little more which I'm fine with that because I can talk and i know how to talk. All i need is confidence.
So it will be less burden for me as I can have more time to concentrate on my priorities, as long as i finish that series of surveys. I can even ask for more surveys - to earn bonus.
Okay I sound like its really easy but its not easy and not hard too. Just that its more relaxing and less difficult than working Seoul Garden
My cousin works on the surveys too so she was willingly to accompany me to any location i have to go too to help out.
Or should I not work at all....?
=.=
I still want to have work experience.....
SG - tough but a fun experience
Survey - less tough but need to talk more (just say out the questions on the survey actually)
What to do?!?!
Gotta discuss with my parents after i come back home from 2nd day of work.
SIGH. Why do I still have to be busy even after O level was over! =.=
Byebye need to rest early!
a little sad yet a little relieved.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010 8:17 PM
I PASSED MY O LEVELS!!! WOHOOOOOO!
When i got my results, i was somehow abit disappointed yet relieved that i can still go poly! Phew.
But im glad we still did a good job!
I wanna thanks Mansura, Thivya, Layling, Erni and Victor Keng for coming to support us! And we received a beautiful rose each by Erni!!
Thank you alot!!! Sorry victor and erni, that we didn't talk to you much as we were all still excited and stressing over our plans after seeing our results. Really sorry... I still greatly appreciate you for supporting me and others!
When I went through the courses listed in JAE form, got alot to choose.....
BUT....SO HARD TO DECIDE!
ESPECIALLY DESIGN.
I GONNA USE JPSAE AS A BACKUP...
DEAR GOD PLEASE GUIDE ME THE WAY. PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH! PLEASE BE THERE FOR ME WHEREVER I AM.
Whenever Im at wit's ends, i often pray to God for help. I felt like I needed him. Even though im not considered a christian and i have stopped going to CHC, I still somehow talk to God. Like using him as a comfort. But still, if He really is there, I hope he can hear me and give me strength and watch over me while I continue to believe in Him!
I thanks my aunty and my cousin for lending a helping hand. Still, in the end, its my decision! When they asked or explained, i started thinking so much and imagining the outcome and the future if i take this or that! I have a clearer understanding on most courses though after the staffs from poly explained.
SIGH!
I HOPE I CAN MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION AND GET THE COURSE I WANT......
O level gonna released 11 jan......
Monday, January 11, 2010 12:16 AM
